this will be a short post... as I don't have too much to share... other than the fact that chemo is over!!!!
now, in saying that, I do have to share some bumps and lumps... as you know, there are two new lumps in my breast tissue that's left (as i had a skin sparring mastectomy in order to make reconstruction more successful later) ... one lump had turned spongy, which is good news... so it's probably just fat necrosis... the dead fat cells that are left, teaming up together and forming a lump.... but the other lump is on my chest wall... between two ribs... and it's hard and set in it's place, so to say... this one worries them.
so, after my oncologist talked to several dr's in mammography (they would do a biopsy), they decline trying the biopsy on me, in fear they'd puncture a lung... so he was given a radiologists name (female) who he's told will take more risks if the patient is a breast cancer one... so she came to the office as soon as he called her... she felt the lump and said she'd try, only if mammogram assisted her with ultrasound... and if she felt the lump was too close to the lung, or on the outside of the lung (which is their fear) then she wouldn't be able to do... SO, i know this seems like a lot, but i'm not feeling like it is!
here's why... Triple Negative Breast Cancer isn't a one shot and your out deal like regular breast cancer can more often be... most likely I won't be celebrating 10 years of free and clear... i learned during this last visit that with further testing of my 4 cm lump, my survival rate past 10 years is 58%... not the greatest numbers... so, i'm ready for a fight... this may not be my last chemo in my lifetime, but i'm done THIS time, and i'm so happy about that =)
i've always gone through life thinking I was a realist...and people put me in the spot of negative... but i'm not negative... not at all! i face life, accept it... and move on! i smile, i laugh, i play bubbles with my son, i dance to silly songs in the bathroom naked! lol what more can i ask for?? i'm blessed... we aren't promised anything... so i take what i get, and i'm happy with it... that's what a realist is... that's who i am =)
turned out to be longer than i thought! thanks for reading through the typos and poor grammer... maybe i'll fix it later when my son isn't jumping on the bed next to me =) but for now, i need to tackle him!
