FAIL
I ate sushi for lunch. Yes, that means rice. Yes, that means I didn't reach 30 days... bleh
This whole brother, alcoholic, addict, thing has my nerves on edge. I just couldn't handle another day or chicken and salad for lunch. Yes, I should have planned something more interesting. but I had to be out all day, and it was the only option. So I said "screw it". I had a craving for sushi, and I went for it.
I went to an Al-anon meeting tonight, hoping to get back on an emotionally healthy track. That didn't work. Sometimes I loathe those meetings. They are more politics then anything. Aren't we supposed to be there sharing feelings and helping each other?
I'm not in a good place, I guess that's why I'm not blogging like I should be; daily. We all tend to share our happiness willingly, but keep secret our pain, don't we?
I don't know what else to write. I failed the whole30 today. Yes, I know, tomorrow is a new day.
Day 1.
Wednesday, July 17, 2013
Wednesday, July 10, 2013
Whole 30: Day 15... And Al Anon
Once again I found myself cooking a noncompliant meal for someone else... It's so frustrating! lol Why can't everyone be on the Whole 30 with me?! Darn these noncompliant eaters!
I felt like a rebel today. I didn't eat breakfast, and tried very hard not to eat lunch... Why?? I simply didn't wanna eat healthy food, so I wasn't going to eat at all. That lasted until about 1pm... At which point my son made me stop for something to eat, and of course, being the rebel I am, I didn't bring along anything to eat.
Don't worry, I made due at the food court, barely.
Then home it was, to cook yummy baked spaghetti and cheesy garlic bread for a couple who just had their first baby (the frg set up a meal train to ease them into their new life). I cooked that and silently cried as I chopped onion and cabbage for our own meal.
After dinner, I headed to an Al Anon meeting. I would tell you about it, but I'm sworn to secrecy. What happens in Al Anon, stays in Al Anon.
All joking aside though, I really needed that meeting. The family members of alcoholics are addicts too.
We are addicted to giving everything. We are addicted to being at the beck and call of our addicted loved ones. When I was a little girl, my mama first took me to Al Anon. I think it was because she didn't want me to grow up to be like her. She gave herself, 110%, to my dad and brother. She left nothing for herself. She wanted me to learn a different way. So far, I've done nothing but follow her footsteps, because in my eyes, she did what was right. But right by whom? By the ones who continue to hurt and take. I'm going to change that.
AD-DICT
noun
I felt like a rebel today. I didn't eat breakfast, and tried very hard not to eat lunch... Why?? I simply didn't wanna eat healthy food, so I wasn't going to eat at all. That lasted until about 1pm... At which point my son made me stop for something to eat, and of course, being the rebel I am, I didn't bring along anything to eat.
Don't worry, I made due at the food court, barely.
Then home it was, to cook yummy baked spaghetti and cheesy garlic bread for a couple who just had their first baby (the frg set up a meal train to ease them into their new life). I cooked that and silently cried as I chopped onion and cabbage for our own meal.
After dinner, I headed to an Al Anon meeting. I would tell you about it, but I'm sworn to secrecy. What happens in Al Anon, stays in Al Anon.
All joking aside though, I really needed that meeting. The family members of alcoholics are addicts too.
We are addicted to giving everything. We are addicted to being at the beck and call of our addicted loved ones. When I was a little girl, my mama first took me to Al Anon. I think it was because she didn't want me to grow up to be like her. She gave herself, 110%, to my dad and brother. She left nothing for herself. She wanted me to learn a different way. So far, I've done nothing but follow her footsteps, because in my eyes, she did what was right. But right by whom? By the ones who continue to hurt and take. I'm going to change that.
AD-DICT
noun
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
Whole 30: Half way point!!
We made it, we made it!! No, we aren't done... But we are halfway =) This won't be a long post, as I'm super sleepy from spening the last several hours online, looking up deals and steals for a trip to Vegas! So my eyes are sore, and so is my butt from sitting here. So here's the food for the day:
Breakfast: Smoothie; carrot juice, coconut water, kale, banana, strawberries
Lunch: Roast turkey mixed with stirfry veggies, topped with an egg... eaten as lettuce wraps
Dinner: Pork steak topped with an egg and garlic greenbeans
Snack: tea and tea
Breakfast: Smoothie; carrot juice, coconut water, kale, banana, strawberries
Lunch: Roast turkey mixed with stirfry veggies, topped with an egg... eaten as lettuce wraps
Dinner: Pork steak topped with an egg and garlic greenbeans
Snack: tea and tea
Monday, July 8, 2013
Whole 30: Day 13
Today was HARD! It was nieces 6th Bday and I was surrounded by non compliant food! I was in charge of making the chili, so I took that oppurtunity to make myself and husband something yummy that we could enjoy as well. I made two different kinds... My normal, loved, chilli... and my Whole 30 chilli. People had a ton of questions about why ours was different... What the diet was about? What's paleo mean? Etc.
Overall, the people who ate ours, seemed to enjoy it! Sure, we just had chilli on this hot summer day, but we were able to enjoy some watermelon for dessert =)
I gotta tell you though, skipping out on the bday cupcakes killed me! In fact, I'm still mad! lol
Anyway, here's the food for the day:
Breakfast: Tea and pineapple
Lunch: chilli and watermelon
Dinner: Roasted chicken and Bean sprouts, cabbage, carrots, broccolli and onion, sauteed in olive oil and coconut aminos
Overall, the people who ate ours, seemed to enjoy it! Sure, we just had chilli on this hot summer day, but we were able to enjoy some watermelon for dessert =)
I gotta tell you though, skipping out on the bday cupcakes killed me! In fact, I'm still mad! lol
Anyway, here's the food for the day:
Breakfast: Tea and pineapple
Lunch: chilli and watermelon
Dinner: Roasted chicken and Bean sprouts, cabbage, carrots, broccolli and onion, sauteed in olive oil and coconut aminos
Sunday, July 7, 2013
Whole 30: Day 12
Wow, I missed a whole bunch of days! Too many to go over!
Quite overview of what was important. I had a REALLY bad day where I was just ready to quite and order a pizza! I was just done! But I turned to social media, via FB, and put my plans of quitting out there... I got a ton of support, along with some support for the pizza, and in the end, just talking about it, helped me let the cravings go.
So, SUCCESS! We are at day 12 =)
We spent the 4th of July with friends who understood our meal plan... And they were supportive after some coaxing lol Actually, we spent two nights with them! Grilling meat and veggies and not missing a darn thing! It doesn't feel like a diet at all! I try to explain to people that it's not! People think we're torturing ourselves... they urge me to just have the one cookie, it's not a big deal, they say!
After 30 days, maybe I will have the cookie. Maybe I won't have the cookie. But that's AFTER the 30 days =) We're almost to the half way mark. It has us thinking, what will we do when it's over? I know we introduce the food on the "no" list slowly. Dairy, sugar, grains, soy, alcohol (although we never drink anyway). I'm very interested in how my body with react to these things... Dairy and grains especially.
We will try to continue to be on our best behavior. Habits, ideally, should have changed after 30 days. If we see that we can't control ourselves once the 30 is over... It's another 30 days for us, this much we've agreed on. Brad is content doing the whole30 non stop. Me? not so much! So we shall see!
Breakfast: nada, I slept in
Lunch: Roasted chicken and salad
Dinner: Starfruit bbq sauce wings and beansprouts and broccolli sauteed in some coconut aminos
Quite overview of what was important. I had a REALLY bad day where I was just ready to quite and order a pizza! I was just done! But I turned to social media, via FB, and put my plans of quitting out there... I got a ton of support, along with some support for the pizza, and in the end, just talking about it, helped me let the cravings go.
So, SUCCESS! We are at day 12 =)
We spent the 4th of July with friends who understood our meal plan... And they were supportive after some coaxing lol Actually, we spent two nights with them! Grilling meat and veggies and not missing a darn thing! It doesn't feel like a diet at all! I try to explain to people that it's not! People think we're torturing ourselves... they urge me to just have the one cookie, it's not a big deal, they say!
After 30 days, maybe I will have the cookie. Maybe I won't have the cookie. But that's AFTER the 30 days =) We're almost to the half way mark. It has us thinking, what will we do when it's over? I know we introduce the food on the "no" list slowly. Dairy, sugar, grains, soy, alcohol (although we never drink anyway). I'm very interested in how my body with react to these things... Dairy and grains especially.
We will try to continue to be on our best behavior. Habits, ideally, should have changed after 30 days. If we see that we can't control ourselves once the 30 is over... It's another 30 days for us, this much we've agreed on. Brad is content doing the whole30 non stop. Me? not so much! So we shall see!
Breakfast: nada, I slept in
Lunch: Roasted chicken and salad
Dinner: Starfruit bbq sauce wings and beansprouts and broccolli sauteed in some coconut aminos
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Whole 30: Day 8
Today was Cash's second day of summer vacation and he's already bored! So we had a fun playdate with his fave little mamas =)
Meal-wise? I had to eat some roasted chicken out. Probably not the best thing to do, but it was grilled and tasted just fine, compliant wise. Fingers crossed there wasn't anything that crossed me over to the dark non compliant side O.O
I make breakfast and lunch packed up, to go, for my husband. I need to just start doing this for myself too! I'm important, aren't I ?! Yes, yes I am =)
So here's the breakdown:
Breakfast: nada =(
Lunch: grilled chicken and a side salad with no dressing
Dinner: Roasted turkey breast with lots of fresh herbs, crook neck squash sauteed with onions, and watermelon
Snack: iced tea and pineapple
Meal-wise? I had to eat some roasted chicken out. Probably not the best thing to do, but it was grilled and tasted just fine, compliant wise. Fingers crossed there wasn't anything that crossed me over to the dark non compliant side O.O
I make breakfast and lunch packed up, to go, for my husband. I need to just start doing this for myself too! I'm important, aren't I ?! Yes, yes I am =)
So here's the breakdown:
Breakfast: nada =(
Lunch: grilled chicken and a side salad with no dressing
Dinner: Roasted turkey breast with lots of fresh herbs, crook neck squash sauteed with onions, and watermelon
Snack: iced tea and pineapple
Tuesday, July 2, 2013
Whole 30: One week down!
Yay! We've made it a week! AMAZED! O.O
What's changed so far? Headache was only slight tonight, not bothersome at all and gone before I knew it. My body is getting off the sugar =) Sleep is coming at a more reasonable time, which is like, midnight. Before, I never slept before 1 am. I'm not napping like I used to, with that lull in the middle of the day. Energy throughout is more consistant. It hasn't been this way since cancer!
I'm also drinking way more water. My body is CRAVING it. Not sure if that's normal? But I know water is good for me, so I'll take it.
Although I cook A LOT, the work load hasn't been too bad. Brad's taken on the task of daily dishes. YAY! So I handle food; he handles clean up. And oh my, is there a LOT of clean up! I've never had so many dirty dishes a day in my life!
Quality time together is a HUGE change that I didn't expect. Every night after dinner, we are in the kitchen for almost an hour together, while I cook the meals for his breakfast and lunch the next day, and he does the daily cleanup. We talk about our days, about funny YouTube videos we saw, about cash, about our good food, about what the weekend holds, etc etc. Prior to this, we actually had to plan meeting time several days a week in order to communicate! Sounds crazy, I know, but with our lives so busy and focused around Cash, him and I rarely just talked about... stuff!
So with that, I leave you with the meals for the day:
Breakfast: Egg over pork sausage and hot sauce
Lunch: Salad and grilled chicken at Charlies, brought own dressing
Dinner: beef stew with carrots, zucchini, onion and tomato, on top of cauliflower rice
Snack: pineapple and tea
What's changed so far? Headache was only slight tonight, not bothersome at all and gone before I knew it. My body is getting off the sugar =) Sleep is coming at a more reasonable time, which is like, midnight. Before, I never slept before 1 am. I'm not napping like I used to, with that lull in the middle of the day. Energy throughout is more consistant. It hasn't been this way since cancer!
I'm also drinking way more water. My body is CRAVING it. Not sure if that's normal? But I know water is good for me, so I'll take it.
Although I cook A LOT, the work load hasn't been too bad. Brad's taken on the task of daily dishes. YAY! So I handle food; he handles clean up. And oh my, is there a LOT of clean up! I've never had so many dirty dishes a day in my life!
Quality time together is a HUGE change that I didn't expect. Every night after dinner, we are in the kitchen for almost an hour together, while I cook the meals for his breakfast and lunch the next day, and he does the daily cleanup. We talk about our days, about funny YouTube videos we saw, about cash, about our good food, about what the weekend holds, etc etc. Prior to this, we actually had to plan meeting time several days a week in order to communicate! Sounds crazy, I know, but with our lives so busy and focused around Cash, him and I rarely just talked about... stuff!
So with that, I leave you with the meals for the day:
Breakfast: Egg over pork sausage and hot sauce
Lunch: Salad and grilled chicken at Charlies, brought own dressing
Dinner: beef stew with carrots, zucchini, onion and tomato, on top of cauliflower rice
Snack: pineapple and tea
Sunday, June 30, 2013
Whole 30: Day 5 and 6
So I was too tired to blog my day last night... We didn't get home until midnight! We had the best game night with some awesome friends of ours, playing Battle of the Sexes. As, I'm sure you can guess, the ladies won =)
Today was grocery day. We focused on meats, as we still have quite a bit fresh veggies from last weekends haul. We visited Whole Foods and bought about a 150$ in meats. Actually, not too bad, considering it's for the whole week!
I've only made a menu in my head, but not on paper. Let's hope that works for me lol
So yesterday, Day 5, went as follows:
Breakfast: Larabar
Lunch: salad with lettuce, spinach, cucumber, avo, and chicken.
Dinner: Shrimp cocktail, minus the cocktail (substituted our own avo, mayo, hot sauce, lemon juice dip), lots of veggies and fruits (had food to pick on during game night)
Today, Day 6:
Breakfast: 2.5 eggs scrambled with prosciutto, kale and onion
Lunch: Built our own salad at Whole foods with a side of kalua pig and cabbage (was totally stoked to see they had a whole 30 compliant hot entree!)
Dinner: Steak night! with asparagus, shitake mushrooms and onions
Overall, we are both feeling great! Brad is having a harder time then I am, though. He works out twice a day, usually, and he's finding that it's hard to keep his energy up with the carbs. We are gonna try to incorporate more sweet potato for his this week. I don't eat it, just don't like the taste, but he loves it. So maybe twice this week, I will roast him some. Hoping that helps!
I do get a little headache in the afternoon. Not as bad as it was the first couple days, though. I'm guessing my body isn't hating me AS MUCH for the less caffeine and sugar. I'm thinking they will go away by this next week =)
Happy Sunday everyone!
Today was grocery day. We focused on meats, as we still have quite a bit fresh veggies from last weekends haul. We visited Whole Foods and bought about a 150$ in meats. Actually, not too bad, considering it's for the whole week!
I've only made a menu in my head, but not on paper. Let's hope that works for me lol
So yesterday, Day 5, went as follows:
Breakfast: Larabar
Lunch: salad with lettuce, spinach, cucumber, avo, and chicken.
Dinner: Shrimp cocktail, minus the cocktail (substituted our own avo, mayo, hot sauce, lemon juice dip), lots of veggies and fruits (had food to pick on during game night)
Today, Day 6:
Breakfast: 2.5 eggs scrambled with prosciutto, kale and onion
Lunch: Built our own salad at Whole foods with a side of kalua pig and cabbage (was totally stoked to see they had a whole 30 compliant hot entree!)
Dinner: Steak night! with asparagus, shitake mushrooms and onions
Overall, we are both feeling great! Brad is having a harder time then I am, though. He works out twice a day, usually, and he's finding that it's hard to keep his energy up with the carbs. We are gonna try to incorporate more sweet potato for his this week. I don't eat it, just don't like the taste, but he loves it. So maybe twice this week, I will roast him some. Hoping that helps!
I do get a little headache in the afternoon. Not as bad as it was the first couple days, though. I'm guessing my body isn't hating me AS MUCH for the less caffeine and sugar. I'm thinking they will go away by this next week =)
Happy Sunday everyone!
Saturday, June 29, 2013
Whole30: Day 4
It's Friday night, our eat out night! But nooooo, I had to try the healthy thing.
Let me tell you, I am NOT sorry! Dinner tonight was AMAZING!
I still need to work on the not eating so much part, though lol But I'm just glad I'm stuffed with real food, and not grease and fat. It's only day 4, I know... Too soon to see change... But I'm feeling pretty good! That's gotta count for something, right? =)
So here's the breakdown of the day...
Breakfast: Larabar (i was in a rush, forgive me)
Lunch: Denny's (weekly father, daughter lunch, i had to) salad with just plain grilled chicken breast, avo, and a fork full of their oil dressing which tasted too sweet, so i didn't eat it (i was afraid it had hidden sugar in it)
Dinner: spaghetti and zuchinni noodles
Snack: Pickle spears and watermelon
Let me tell you, I am NOT sorry! Dinner tonight was AMAZING!
I still need to work on the not eating so much part, though lol But I'm just glad I'm stuffed with real food, and not grease and fat. It's only day 4, I know... Too soon to see change... But I'm feeling pretty good! That's gotta count for something, right? =)
So here's the breakdown of the day...
Breakfast: Larabar (i was in a rush, forgive me)
Lunch: Denny's (weekly father, daughter lunch, i had to) salad with just plain grilled chicken breast, avo, and a fork full of their oil dressing which tasted too sweet, so i didn't eat it (i was afraid it had hidden sugar in it)
Dinner: spaghetti and zuchinni noodles
Snack: Pickle spears and watermelon
Friday, June 28, 2013
Whole30: Day 3
So today started off with me feeling better then ever! Then I left the house and realized I hadn't planned any meals for myself =/ Not smart! So I stopped by the local health food store and made myself a salad... for breakfast... agh. I won't pretend it was awesome... I won't.
By lunch, I was feeling sick to my stomach. After lunch, I actually was sick to my stomach. That was followed by heat flashes and just an overall feeling of BLEH.
So I made a quick soup for dinner and now, before bed, I'm feeling okay-ish. But I suspect I will experience those same side effect tomorrow again. The forums warned of these flu-like feelings the first two weeks... my body isn't used to all this real food! I'm really feeling the sugar cravings and the need for a big Monster of caffeine! How awful that I've done this to my body!! Made it reliant on this crap...
Breakfast: Salad with spinach, beets, red cabbage, romaine, carrots and dressing.
Lunch: pork patty with easy over egg, half an avo mixed with salsa, and garlic sauteed green beans
Dinner: soup with chicken, zuchinni, carrots, onion, cabbage and tomato
Snack: seedless grapes
By lunch, I was feeling sick to my stomach. After lunch, I actually was sick to my stomach. That was followed by heat flashes and just an overall feeling of BLEH.
So I made a quick soup for dinner and now, before bed, I'm feeling okay-ish. But I suspect I will experience those same side effect tomorrow again. The forums warned of these flu-like feelings the first two weeks... my body isn't used to all this real food! I'm really feeling the sugar cravings and the need for a big Monster of caffeine! How awful that I've done this to my body!! Made it reliant on this crap...
Breakfast: Salad with spinach, beets, red cabbage, romaine, carrots and dressing.
Lunch: pork patty with easy over egg, half an avo mixed with salsa, and garlic sauteed green beans
Dinner: soup with chicken, zuchinni, carrots, onion, cabbage and tomato
Snack: seedless grapes
Thursday, June 27, 2013
Whole30: Day 2
Day 2!! (jumping for joy) I actually stuck with something more then a day! lol
This will be a short one, I'm tired and just wanna to night night =)
I was out for most of the day, so I planned ahead and packed part of my lunch and a snack.
Breakfast: Kale, strawberries, banana, carrot juice smoothie and a banana on the side shared with my son
Lunch: Grilled chicken salad at Charlie's... Chicken was grilled with only salt and pepper (i checked), brought my own boiled egg and dressing.
Dinner: turkey breast and roasted asparagus wrapped in prosciutto (oh my goodness, it was amazing)
Snack: Mac nuts and pickle
Got a headache again around the same time as yesterday. Drank some green tea and it went away. Caffeine headache?
Overall, I'm feeling really full and great. Like, really full. lol I'm not used to eating any breakfast... Maybe that's the reason for the fullness? Or it could be that meat always sits heavy in me... and the Whole30 likes meat. We shall see... 28 days to go!
This will be a short one, I'm tired and just wanna to night night =)
I was out for most of the day, so I planned ahead and packed part of my lunch and a snack.
Breakfast: Kale, strawberries, banana, carrot juice smoothie and a banana on the side shared with my son
Lunch: Grilled chicken salad at Charlie's... Chicken was grilled with only salt and pepper (i checked), brought my own boiled egg and dressing.
Dinner: turkey breast and roasted asparagus wrapped in prosciutto (oh my goodness, it was amazing)
Snack: Mac nuts and pickle
Got a headache again around the same time as yesterday. Drank some green tea and it went away. Caffeine headache?
Overall, I'm feeling really full and great. Like, really full. lol I'm not used to eating any breakfast... Maybe that's the reason for the fullness? Or it could be that meat always sits heavy in me... and the Whole30 likes meat. We shall see... 28 days to go!
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
The Whole30: Day 1
So as you might have guessed from the title, I'm doing the Whole30. The Whole30 is a food program that's designed to restart your system. Protein is good. Starch is not. Veggies are good. Sugar is not. Etc Etc. Common sense, right? You'd think so... But as I've discovered, and as I already knew from the growing size of my stomach and butt... I needed help with my food choices.
I've spent the last several years making excuses. "I'm focussing on my sister." "I'm grieving my sister." "I have cancer." "I'll lose weight on chemo anyway." "I can't exercise, I'm sick." and so on and so on and so on.
Well, the exercise thing is true as of right now... I have an infected foot. It's been infected for a month now. Before that it was a kidney infection. Before that it was a staph infection from my hysterectomy. So fine! I'm on limited movement for the past month, that doesn't mean I have to be depressed and eat crap all day long!
Yes, I'm an emotional eater. No, knowing that does not solve the problem. Yes, I know how to lose weight. Yes, I've been on a very successful program of dieting and exercising in the past, I'm not an idiot who thinks McDonald's isn't all that bad.
So what I know, I can't unknow... got it?
Day 1
Breakfast: Kale, strawberry, banana and carrot juice smoothie
Lunch: Grilled chicken and a whole cucumber
Dinner: Turkey burger, egg, salsa, half avocado and side salad
Snacks: Half bottle of coconut water and palm full of macadamia nuts
So far, I'm feeling full and satisfied. End of day, I got a bad headache. Sugar withdrawal? We shall see tomorrow.
I've spent the last several years making excuses. "I'm focussing on my sister." "I'm grieving my sister." "I have cancer." "I'll lose weight on chemo anyway." "I can't exercise, I'm sick." and so on and so on and so on.
Well, the exercise thing is true as of right now... I have an infected foot. It's been infected for a month now. Before that it was a kidney infection. Before that it was a staph infection from my hysterectomy. So fine! I'm on limited movement for the past month, that doesn't mean I have to be depressed and eat crap all day long!
Yes, I'm an emotional eater. No, knowing that does not solve the problem. Yes, I know how to lose weight. Yes, I've been on a very successful program of dieting and exercising in the past, I'm not an idiot who thinks McDonald's isn't all that bad.
So what I know, I can't unknow... got it?
Day 1
Breakfast: Kale, strawberry, banana and carrot juice smoothie
Lunch: Grilled chicken and a whole cucumber
Dinner: Turkey burger, egg, salsa, half avocado and side salad
Snacks: Half bottle of coconut water and palm full of macadamia nuts
So far, I'm feeling full and satisfied. End of day, I got a bad headache. Sugar withdrawal? We shall see tomorrow.
Monday, April 29, 2013
Oncology on Canvas...
My hospital, Tripler, hosted an Oncology on Canvas event... I took my husband and son, and we painted our hearts out! I will share with you my painting...
"For me, one of the hardest things about getting breast cancer was the pretty pink ribbon. Breast Cancer isn't a dainty pink ribbon. It's a mutilation; an amputation.
For me, breast cancer meant a double mastectomy, full hysterectomy and oopherectomy. It was a journey that got worse before it got better. It was bloody. It was red."
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
It's been awhile.
Hello Internet Peoples!
It's been a long time since my last post. You can take to mostly mean that things are okay. Cancer is gone. Surgeries are done (for now). Healing has happened.
My biggest fight now is to get my immune system back up. Dr's say it will be about a year before I'm somewhat normal. Low immune system has meant more colds, more asthma issues (not sure how that works?), and a kidney infection. That last one was a drag!
Radiation has left a permanent discoloration on my chest and underarm. It also has caused some swelling, or lymphedema. Not fun, but I will live with it my whole life, so it's okay. Some days are worse, on those days, I can't wear my prosthetic breasts. The pain is too much. So I put on a pretty scarf, even in the hot Hawaii weather, and call it fashionable. I look kinda cute in scarves!
Reconstruction is a ways off. I want to lose 40+ lbs prior. Hey, if I'm getting a tummy tuck, I might as well make it worth it! For those who aren't aware, they will be taking skin from my abdomen to reconstruct breast-like shapes out of.
So that's it for now! I will try to keep more regular with this, as my journey didn't end with treatment... Cancer follows me daily.
Reata
It's been a long time since my last post. You can take to mostly mean that things are okay. Cancer is gone. Surgeries are done (for now). Healing has happened.
My biggest fight now is to get my immune system back up. Dr's say it will be about a year before I'm somewhat normal. Low immune system has meant more colds, more asthma issues (not sure how that works?), and a kidney infection. That last one was a drag!
Radiation has left a permanent discoloration on my chest and underarm. It also has caused some swelling, or lymphedema. Not fun, but I will live with it my whole life, so it's okay. Some days are worse, on those days, I can't wear my prosthetic breasts. The pain is too much. So I put on a pretty scarf, even in the hot Hawaii weather, and call it fashionable. I look kinda cute in scarves!
Reconstruction is a ways off. I want to lose 40+ lbs prior. Hey, if I'm getting a tummy tuck, I might as well make it worth it! For those who aren't aware, they will be taking skin from my abdomen to reconstruct breast-like shapes out of.
So that's it for now! I will try to keep more regular with this, as my journey didn't end with treatment... Cancer follows me daily.
Reata
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